Friday, August 12th, 2005
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3:47 pm - Crash Into Me
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Wow. Today sucked a lot. I won't go into detail because nobody cares. But, I can say that I absolutely HATE it when people don't trust me. It makes me feel horrible. I'll just leave it at that.
Today was also that last day of the 8-2 band camp. That in no way is why today sucked. It was sooo effing hot today. Just like pretty much every day.
Alright, well I'm gonna stop now because I have a feeling if I go on any longer it'll just be full of complaining about things people don't care about and wouldn't read. im out...
current mood:  hating life
current music: Dave Matthews Band - Crash Into Me
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Tuesday, June 28th, 2005
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1:46 pm - the sun also rises
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hey hey hey. wow i havent updated in an incredibly long time. haha well lets see whats gone on lately. uhmmm obviously school's out and its been an absolutely grrrreat summer. with the minor exceptions of the summer assignments i keep getting anxious over for AP english and AP history. but oh well. il get over it. and it should be worth it when it comes time for colleges and whatnot. lets see what else..right now im home alone bc im supposed to be reading my book to do an essay on thats due by july 7th. which really sucks because i wanna be out doing other stuff and not worrying about it.
oh man, serena's leaving tonight for India and shes gonna be gone for SIX WEEKS!!!!! she's gonna be back for the last half of the second week of band camp. im really gonna miss her bc we had been on a streak of doing something at least one day/night every weekend for a while but yeah so il miss her whindian(white-indian) self. love her to death!
uhmmm all ive done this summer is go to the beach bc my dad had a room for free from the states attorneys office in cambridge. bc there was a conference thingy there. so i went to the beach for like four days straight which was really awesome. i got really burnt on my back but hey thats alright. and yesterday i babysat my sister ally. and for right now im babysitting her every other day and the days im not babysitting her im home alone doing AP work. woohoo!
band camp starts on August second or something like that. immmm excited! too bad its incredibly hot and all we do is get yelled at all day. but when marching season comes around its allllll worth it! alright well im out. im gonna go lay out i think on the front sidewalk haha. k im out
current mood:  anxious
current music: when you're good to momma-queen latifah
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Wednesday, June 1st, 2005
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10:29 am
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well im home alone and just finished my beefaroni. haha my back really really hurt this morning. so yeah im here on the computer while my mom takes my sister on a field trip at her school. im not sure what im watching on tv. some really weird thing on USA. but yeah alright well like i said my back really hurts so im gonna go lay down. peace...
current mood:  tired
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Thursday, May 26th, 2005
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5:41 pm
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hey hey...serena's coming over tonight! thats whats up! and we're gonna watch phantom of the opera and then play it on piano and then watch aladdin and play that on piano and then go through her yearbook and like hilight all the hot guys. haha that sounds awesome. i know. and then shes gonan stay the night and get up and got to school tomorrow at like 10:45 or whatever. so yeah im excited! i think im gonna change my pic. lol random i know. sooo yeah stefanie's leaving today for south carolina i believe and im gonna miss her. just when we start talking about hanging out shes gotta go and leave me haha jk. but yeah so hopefully we'll hang out soon. but this weekend i think im gonna chill w/ erin and grace which is awesome cuz i havent done anything w/ them in idk how long. soo yeah. alright well i also have piano lessons tonight and i havent practiced worth shit this week. so im out
current mood:  ecstatic
current music: Underoath - A Boy Brushed Red Living in Black and White
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Tuesday, May 24th, 2005
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4:11 pm
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its really too bad that some ppl that you think are your best friends like to tlak about you behind your back and then lie about it when you confront them about it. its too bad that ppl cant grow up and then call you immature. it sucks it had to turn out this way. but i guess this way i just dont have to deal with your shit anymore. im better off not having to think i needed to pretend to be someone im not just when i hang out with you. i get treated a shit load better by my other friends. i dont need you and your bullshit. you're the one that went off and said that i "ended our friendship" when actually you ruined it a long time ago when you started getting bitchy towards me. trust me. il be just fine.
current mood: bitchy
current music: phantom of the opera - music of the night
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Friday, May 20th, 2005
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4:04 pm
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i would really love to know why life sucks soo incredibly much sometimes. so yeah if i could get an explaination of that that would be grrreat. good luck :*(
current mood: lonely
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Monday, May 16th, 2005
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4:34 pm - il have you spendin' all you got. keep goin' till you hit the spot...
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I just can't control myself
Can't be with anyone else
It seems I'm addicted to the way you like to touch me
I don't think they understand
Why I love at your command
From the words you speak so deep
Our bodies meet, I have to have you...
aww cute song...soo yea regular day. my back hurt rrrreally really bad! and despite what many many ppl say. i really dont think its bc of the size of my "chest" haha but moving on... well this weekend was good. i finally saw 50 first dates and it was one of the cutest things ever!!! "no, just kidding moo moo!" (serena and elizabeth) hahaa gotta love it. i also got paint for my room its gonna be awesome! burgandy-ish on two walls. "caramel" on one wall and a wall of mirrors to make it look bigger. how AWESOME?! im really excited! lol then maybe it wont look like a shitty looking cubicle lol. well i guess its not that small haha but aaanyway..alright well i gotta do my homework then finish cleaning so i can start painting.. lol im out!
current mood:  confused
current music: Aladdin and Jasmine - A Whole New World (u know you like it)
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Friday, May 13th, 2005
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1:52 pm
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alright..uhmm not much to update about. didnt go to school yesterday bc i had a doctor's appointment in cambridge and by the time we visited my dad and my sister at work and then got back to salisbury there was no point in going back to school for like two hours. and i didnt go to school today because we did a mock trial competition at salisbury school and got free lunch. all thanks to myles bc if he didnt give me a ride both ways def woulda been in school all day. which, unfortunately, was where serena was all day :*( alright well im home alone so im gonna go play piano or just chill or whatever. peace...
current mood:  cold
current music: Ray Charles - Do I Ever Cross Your Mind?
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Tuesday, May 10th, 2005
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3:57 pm - come back to bed
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still is the life of ur room when ur not inside. and all of ur things tell the sweetest story line. ur tears on these sheets. and ur footsteps are down the hall. so tell me what i did. i cant find where the moment went wrong at all. u can be mad in the morning, i take back what i said. just dont leave me alone here, its cold, baby. come back to bed....
mmm..that sexy john mayer. yumm..anyway. pretty good day so far. the only bad part about it was that i didnt finish allll of my latin homework before second period. most of it just not all. urgh..well the slacker that serena is left school after third period to go home and study for her AP exams. haha. but thats ok i wrote her a loooong note in the notebook, like 10 of our little pages so she can read it and write a nice long note back. i looove long notes. especially between us bc they're so funny but im sure if someone besides the two of us were to read them they'd be totally clueless as to what we were talking about it. but hey, its alright. uuurrghh..guys, Hilary needs a boyfriend. BAD haha. but its no laughing matter. Hilary desperately needs one. u know u like me talking in the third person. Hilary is lonely, and she needs someone...but il(she'll) survive. life really sucks most of the time! alright well im off to do my homework (not really but thats what i like to think) realistically: im off to go eat some more and watch tv most likely til i fall asleep. and then when everybody gets home. il go upstairs and if i dont fall asleep up there then maybe il start my homework, if not then il run my two miles and so my crunches adn push ups and what not. theennnn do homework haha. alright well...either way, im out
current mood:  blank
current music: john mayer-come back to bed / jimi hendrix-hey joe
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Monday, May 2nd, 2005
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4:32 pm - just another face you'll see in the mirror.
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hhheyyy...wasssuuuppp? why do ppl say things like that at the beginning of entries? its not like they're gonna get an answer. lol anyway. watching the jackson 5 movie on vh1. yes thats the shit! haha...
well guys the symphonic band concert is this thursday and you KNOW you wanna go! dont even try and deny it! you do. i just know you do. and its ok. haha well concert season's almost over! which i CANT WAIT for because then MARCHING SEASON STARTS! and who doesnt love marching season? i mean really. and u know what. soooo many more ppl would love marching season if it didnt involve mr. miles at all...yes talk about being awesome! that would be awesome.
god im starting to get depressed again i think. which really sucks. i think its bc im lonely. haha i kno how retarded that sounds. but i think its true. i have close friends that are guys. but nothing more than that. and that really sucks. u know what the best thing is EVER? cuddling! and u wanna kno who's done it once and it was about 2 years ago?! yeah me..right here. lol. and guess who else hasnt made out w/ a guy in almost 2 years...yup right here once again. most hot guys are egotistical and most nice guys are ugly. and im sorry no offense to anyone but i just cant have one without the other. lol oh well i guess il get over it.
k im out..<3hiiiilary
current mood: depressed
current music: john mayer - daughters
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Sunday, May 1st, 2005
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1:53 pm - shoo be doo wa wa
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hhey. right now im just watching the outtakes from nutty professor 2. which is absolutely hilarious!!! hahaha. well today... i am going to see my grandparents in their OC condo that they're staying at this week. and then we're gonna have dinner there and then go shopping and whatnot. right now im just home alone bc my dad's ona bike ride and my brother, mom and sister went to staples. who knows why...alright well im out...
current mood: calm
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Sunday, April 24th, 2005
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1:46 am - guess who!!
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12:58 am - oh snap, son.
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aaaahhh..what a day! right now im at jAnna's (my cousin's house in cambridge) lol. no not jenna's. lol. hopefully we'll do something within the near future. but yyyeah right now we're jus chillin and listening to music and shhhtuff..right now we're trying to get a pic of her friend's friend who's supposedly 17 and lives in OC all i know is that he sounds hott and i really want to see a picture of him but he sent a picture of a picture (how retarded)..well i went and listened/watched "special guest" practice at ben's house since he lives right nextdoor and yyyeah it was fun. my plans with andrea for the past two nights have been miscommunicated. lol but its all good. good times...oh and to my special beautiful out there...I LOVE YOU AND KNOW IM ALWAYS HERE AND I KNOW YOURE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME! FOREVER AND EVER!!! teehee..and I LOVE MY ANDREA! haha alright well im gonna go try and get this guy's pic and number and whatnot cuz see Hilary here needs a boyfriend or at least something along those lines cuz nobody's putting out any effort whatsoever for me. so alright off i go... wish me luck! haha
current mood:  bouncy
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Thursday, April 21st, 2005
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3:45 pm
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hhey guys. nothing new at all. my grades are definately coming wwaaaay up! and thats awesome bc maybe i wont be grounded for the rest of my life after all. my older sister jessica turned 26 yesterday (yes on 4-20) haha we went and celebrated at outback steakhouse. well i better go practice bc i have piano tonight and i havent practiced in a loooong while. k im out. ~Hil
current mood: content
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Thursday, April 14th, 2005
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4:53 pm - bleh
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sick. gross. everybody seems to be sick right now. missed two days of school. and i have a project due tomorrow. grrrreat. well its health i think il be alright if i dont finish it tonight. slept all day yesterday and watched some movies while home alone and today my little sister was sick too so she went to the doctor in cambridge and then we went to my grandfather's house and whatnot. then i fell asleep down there and then we came back and picked up my brother. not such a horrible day. except for the fact that it wasnt spent alone. haha alright im out...
current mood:  ok maybe not thaaat sick
current music: food network background music
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Friday, April 8th, 2005
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3:43 pm
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Why do ppl have to be so damn immature? i understand that the skirt i was wearing today was pushing it. i didnt mean to when i put it on for it to be that short. god knows if i knew it was that short i wouldnt have worn it. i felt uncomfortable all day bc i hated what i was wearing. everybody knows that i have low self esteem. whether you agree with my opinons of myself or if u dont. sometimes i just dont think highly of myself whatsoever. and everybody knows that. some ppl make fun of me for having a low self esteem. so what do they do? they make fun of me for stupid stuff. oh yea im sure that'll help things. my life has been really shitty sometimes. and a lot of times it just really sucks. i dont tell my friends what i go through every single day and what ive gone through in the past bc i know they dont wanan hear it and thats fine. but why do ppl that have pretty much everything decide to make things for me even worse? thanks to those of you who help me out through hard times and for those of you that are immature and ignorant id love to switch with you for just a day so you can realize why i am the way i am. and even if u dont know why im like this, get to kno me and you will. but get to know me before you judge because you have no idea. so some of you need to stop being low bitches and others need to stop being perverted jerks
Love Always, Hil
current mood: bitchy
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Friday, April 1st, 2005
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3:55 pm
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hhhey guys! not much has happened recently. Battle of the Bands is tonight! im gonna go over to Andrea's (yes Andrea's) hahaha. and we're getting ready together. then we're going to Battle of the Bands then im going back to her house!!!!!!!!! im so excited!!! alright well im talking to Serena right now and i have to get some things together before i go to Andrea's. so im out..peace
current mood: excited
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Monday, March 28th, 2005
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10:52 am - STILL LOCKED UP
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hey guys. mom's not home so i can be on for just a little while. being grounded is absolutely horrible! i think im grounded for the next thirty years eventhough my grades are waaaay up! god my parents are being so retarded about me being grounded. my brother could throw an all out bitch fit, practically cussing my parents out and screaming and yelling and hit my mom and his punishment would be that he wouldnt be able to go outside for the rest of the night. and then hed most likely be able to go outside anyway. how gay?!its so retarded! i cant use my cell phone or the computer. but luckily ive been able to go to serena's a couple times and andrea's been over a little bit. and hopefully soon il be able to go back her house! lol...k im out.
current mood: calm
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Thursday, March 17th, 2005
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5:04 pm - SERENA!!!!
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TODAY'S SERENA'S BIIIIIIIG 1-5 BIRTHDAY!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY CUTE SERENA! You're finally fifteen! so happy for you! lol soo many great times all the time from band to mock trial and health. googamooga we've got too many inside jokes from "i started getting goosebumps then i turned around and it was dave" to "pass it on. there's nobody on the other side of me, douchebag. oh well then pass it back" to "the one sitting right there---->" to "ING for you and ING for me" i could go on and on and on for days! so happy birthday serena! YOU'RE SO CUTE! LOVE YOU!
current mood: cheerful
current music: Underoath - A Boy Brushed Red Living in Black and White
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Sunday, February 27th, 2005
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1:19 pm - blahhhhh
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hey guys. i am allowed on the internet for a half hour!!! yessssss alright well dont have a whole lot to update about. i stayed at my sister's in cambridge this weekend. did nothing. then did a little more of....absolutely nothing. done a lot of serious thinking lately but thats about it lol. alright well im working on being more serious these days. about a lot of things from schoolwork to ...idk what. ok well..im not in a great mood for who knows why. just one of those 'blah' moods. i hate them. but then again i love 'em bc they keep me relaxed. ok im out...
current mood:  blah
current music: Ray Charles - Sorry Seems to be the Hardest Word
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dats jaaaaanaaa!! teeheee soo cute!
soo awesome!!
its mee its mee!!